Uncertainty

I am uncertain whether I should start doing research about weddings.

I'm so excited. But it's marred by the fact that we're unsure whether there'll be a wedding at all; whether the annulment will be granted.

I was hurt when I heard Inaki say that he was scared whenever I brought up the subject of marriage. I was hurt even more when he snapped at me, when I asked how the text was at his wedding invitation.

It got to the point, where I decided we shouldn't get married anymore.

But. He asked me to marry him. And I said yes. I couldn't imagine our life together any other way.

And I'm on tenterhooks over the annulment. And I can't stop looking at wedding websites and browsing through gowns, invitation, cakes and favors.

I hope everything works out for us.