Delays

As if the anxiety couldn't get more intense, Inaki told me this morning that his lawyer will have to ask the court tomorrow to reset the last hearing. The psychiatrist, the last witness, had to conduct an emergency surgery tomorrow morning. This means, that the next hearing could be six or seven months away.

This is so not fair. In the last hearing last April, the next schedule was September 17. Bright and early last Monday, the psychiatrist, the lawyer and Inaki were there. Then the judge decided to move them on September 20.

And now this. The psychiatrist made himself available for Monday. Nobody expected the sudden and ridiculous change in schedule to tomorrow.

DAMMIT!!!!

I'm hormonal and angry and pissed. I'm so upset, that I want Inaki to file an adultery case against the adulterous wife, so she'll get disbarred. To give her a big enough stigma that will prevent her from landing her dream job at the UN, and may cause problems for her scholarships and other career endeavors.

I'm feeling petty today. Because I want her to feel a fraction of the frustration and heartache Inaki and I are going through. While she gets around with all sorts of guys, manages to get herself pregnant and get a son (and Inaki and I are so unable to have one yet until we're married), gets all the coveted scholarships and remains to have the prestige as the "perfect woman who has it all" in UPM and the rowing team.

Ok. Breathe. Breathe.

Now, that I've gotten that out of my system.

I'm sure that there's a good reason why there's a delay. All I can do at the moment is pray, and hope for the best. (Should I expect the worse?)

But I want to spend the rest of my life with him as his wife. (*sob!)